HEY GUYS! As I'm sure you've noticed, I haven't been posting birthday chronicles everyday. But don't worry, that doesn't mean I'm not doing the things! Some things that were on my list like, shooting in the studio, are things that I won't be able to post until later, gotta give the photog time to edit pics and what not! No rush, ya know?
BUT! I'm here and ready with a post! Yesterday, Matt and I got together with Julia and Peter and took some mushy couple pics. Matt and I didn't even plan it, but I love how he's wearing a white and blue outfit and I'm wearing a red and white outfit. That plus the palm trees, it's like we are in LA in some hot american summer dream. Not sure if that really makes sense, but it's a vibe.
Anyway, I hope you all have had a good week. Only a few days until my big day! Have a great weekend :) xo, O BIRTHWEEKCOUNTDOWN: 3 DAYS
HEY! This post that you are about to read is a VERY IMPORTANT post!! In this post I'll be introducing you to a very important person in my life right now. My boyfriend!
Meet Matt. Matt is a super cute, inspired, clever, funny, talented, all around fabulous guy. This post may seem some what random, but I want to fill y'all in on my life and Matt is a pretty big part of it, so I decided, what the heck, let's introduce him to the world!
A few weeks ago, Matt came and visited me in Richmond, we took some cute pics while out and about around RVA, so here they are (warning: a lot of them are very similar but I couldn't just pick one). And here is a little bit of our story cause I'm an ooey, gooey, ushy, gushy, sappy, gal full of love and I want everyone to know about us!
SO! Here goes nothing...
Matt and I met last spring in our Art History class. I'm going to be completely honest with you all here so buckle up. At the time I was still dating some one else, so keep that in mind. That day, that first day of class we were doing some strange ice breaker and our professor asked Matt what his favorite movie was, he said LaLa Land. Almost immediately I whipped around (I'm a nerd and always sit front row center, Matt is too cool for that so he was behind me) because I loved LaLa Land and had to know who this mystery man was. And there he was, wearing some SCAD tshirt, looking like a goob and I thought to my self "well crap... this is going to be bad"
Like I said, I was in a relationship, and seriously had zero intention of getting to know this dreamy boy for that exact reason. But then those intentions vanished when he would without a DOUBT be on the same bus as my roommates and me every single morning before class. He turned into the "guy from the bus", until one morning when for whatever reason Cher (my roommate) and I were singing Christmas carols, it was a jolly morning, I don't really know, and sort of got his attention. I was talking to her like, "I swear to you, that's the guy from our class!" and she was like "No way it's not" and then when we walked to the same room together I was like, "TOLD YOU SO!" which required and explanation to the guy from the bus. During our break in the middle of class we did just that, sort of explained ourselves, with the carols too and whatnot. Then we sort of became friends.
The four of us (my roommates, Matt and I) would ride the bus together in the mornings, Cher and I (Alli ((other roomie)) wasn't in Art History with us, but rode the same bus) would hang out with Matt and some other people during class breaks and just laugh, talk about random crap, and have a good time, get lunch after class and just be friends. We invited him to study for the mid term with us but didn't have his number, so just hoped he'd remember and show up. After that numbers were exchanged between the few of us, we'd eat meals together, study and all that jazz. We were all friends!
It wasn't until finals that I realized I was falling in love with Matt (!!!!). This was a yikes for the soul reason that, hey! I was in a relationship, a long distance relationship might I add. However I stayed completely faithful and said I would never, ever cheat in my life. Even though on long nights spent up way past any kind of bed time talking about everything and anything for hours, I understood why people would cheat. And this sounds SO BAD but hear me out, I was absolutely falling for this guy, and I was not happy in my current relationship.
We would be standing in between our dorms late, late, late at night (early in the morning actually) and just saying our last words before good bye and I kid you not in my brain it was a battle. CONSTANTLY "Kiss him!" "NO!" "KISS HIMMMM" "NO!" Y'all the struggle was REAL. No, I never kissed him. I did stay completely "faithful" to my then boyfriend but oh man, did I want to be with Matt.
Luckily that was during finals and I was able to get out of there and go home before making things weird or bad or I don't even know what. Although, I thought the feelings would just stop, I tried to convince myself that these feelings were just the absence of my ex, and just lust, but nope not the case. We'd (Matt and I) talk every now and then, but god forbid, if my ex saw he would get upset, making me delete messages, stop all contact, and even delete apps. He (My ex) didn't trust me one bit, even though I trusted him whole heartedly yet of course he persisted to cheat on me throughout the summer, but that's a whole other story I will probably never get into.
My ex broke up with me in August which was, surprisingly for how toxic the whole relationship was, incredibly difficult, heart wrenching, and just not a good time for me. I was going through so many emotions and so much constant confusion. I needed to get out of Richmond and do something for myself. This is when I decided to go to New York City.
A few days before my trip I decided to reach out to some friends who lived in or near NYC to meet up, get some food, hang out, and just see the city together. I met up with a good amount of people that made me happy. Matt was one of them. He came into the city with the intention of going to Coney Island with me for maybe a few hours. Due to bad subway navigation and just the joy of being together, we went all OVER Manhattan, Brooklyn, Coney Island, everywhere. And we, like old times, stayed up together until the early hours of the morning just enjoying each others company. That was one of the best days of my life. I've never had more fun.
After that day, we went our separate ways but did not lose touch. We'd text every night, which then turned into talking on the phone all night, which then turned into face timing all night, every single night until school started two and a half weeks later. Even though it was for the most part virtual, I was absolutely falling in love with this boy. Once we got back to school, we started dating almost immediately. Let me clarify one thing though y'all, I seriously had zero intention of getting with Matt. When I was waiting for him to get to Brooklyn that day in NYC, I kept telling myself "you're just friends, you're just friends" and I knew that. I was fully aware of the heart break I had just gone through, I was not trying to find any kind of rebound or distraction. I was set on being alone for a while and just taking care of myself while I healed from it all, but everything just happened on it's own and it was wonderful.
And yeah! We've been dating for four months now as of two days ago, we classify our day in New York as our first date because it was just that special for us. I seriously am so so so beyond happy. I had never been in any kind of good or even healthy relationships, I had never had any kind of success in that field and always wound up getting hurt. But not this time. This time I am truly happy, so SO happy. Everything is good in the world when I'm with Matt, he's my person and I couldn't be more grateful :) So yeah. That's Matt, that's our story. Hopefully it wasn't too much for you....... lol.
If you like more personal posts like this let me know! I love writing them :)
Until next time, xo, O
To see more Matt, you can check out these YouTube videos:
Howdy! It's Wednesday, I desperately need to be studying right now... but here I am procrastinating. HEY! That's okay! Right? Probably not... Anyway, last week Matt and I took these photos and I think they're pretty cool. I'm getting really into weird portrait photography. Basically just not typical standing and smiling photos that you may be used to on a blog. Have you ever heard of Mango Street? They're photographers and YouTubers, I really like their style, weird poses, and all around good composition. I want to get more into making interesting, quality content over just the same old quick blog post everyday. You dig? I dig.
In other news, life update: finals seem to be going well. Yeah it's a lot of work and yeah it sure is stressful, but I'm actually having a lot of fun. Although I'm beyond excited to go home on Friday, at the same time I'm going to miss my friends and all the good times we have here too! This quarter absolutely FLEW by! Due to the hurricane, we had to have classes on Friday which made for longer weeks and everYTHING HAPPENING AT ONCE! It was a crazy quarter, but a fantastic one none the less. Here's to another great one in 2018!!
xo, O
